to that special friend

A year passed and I have finally

stopped

trying to erase all the feelings

I have for you.

But not now anymore.

instead, i am trying to fade out from those memories for them to be long buried and to be only brought up when my kids asked about it some day.

used to think in the past that, I thought some way, some how, you would be there laughing at all these stories together.

But nah, not anymore.

two more days to your birthday and ...

memories are still bugging me ...

(for some good and bad reason)

but a year is more than enough.

maybe whatever that's left is the believe that we still could be friends and the fact that i care too much to people i thaought that worth me carrying.

so ... yep ...

Wanted to send this to you ...

but ... let's see how things goes ...